Archive for February, 2007

Bus of dreams

One thing about commuting via the bus that I truly love is that I can just drift off into my own thoughts. Some people prefer to drive every day to work, a thing that I just don’t understand, so I prefer the comfy rear corner of the bus with just me and my thoughts. Granted, sometimes, I am a boring individual, so I bore myself with my thoughts and just fall asleep.

But those other times, my imagination just takes off. It’s like I am a five year old again. But the cool thing about it is the fact that rantings of my imagination have the color and depth of an adult.

Today I was sitting on the bus wondering if other people are the same way. If up and down the rows of people on the bus, if each one was in their own world, with their own superheroes, their own adventures, their own outcomes that satisfy their desires in this world.

Then my imagination kicked off. Without warning, backstory, or any sort of prepping, I imagined all those people projecting little microcosms of their worlds around them. The old guy two rows up suddenly is reading the paper in a superhero costume, and the lady next to him looking out the window is dressed like an astronaut.

Before I knew it, I was on a bus full of other people’s dreams. I looked down at that point at my own clothes, and realized nothing had changed on my end.

What a dullard I am. Even my own imagination can’t make me a character… I always end up as the narrator.

Ha.

Conan and Serena on the Wii

Reading context

Funny how people read the exact same passage and get totally different things out of it.

My wife reads my post yesterday on how time is fleeting and thinks it is a depressing and rather sad outlook on life.

My friend reads the same post and reads that cherishing the life your given in whatever way you can is absolutely correct and rings of a bit of truth.

So where does the fault for misinterpretation lie? Probably on the author’s shoulders I would think. So I punched that damn goodfornothing author right in the eye.

If anyone asks, I ran into a door knob. Twice.

I just finished Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman. And again, he knocks one out of the park. I love reading Neil’s works… his clarity and depth of knowledge of the world of stories, legends and myths make the fantastic quite possible.

American Gods was a great book, but I think this one just took it up a notch in terms of people looking for that special thing in themselves. That defining shining things in their hearts that light up the world around them… whether they are a god or not.

Context be damned. It is a great book no matter how you read it.

Highly suggested, if you like reading about beliefs becoming real (a consistent theme in Gaiman’s works).

Welcome to Febfrickuary

What are the lyrics to that Smashing Pumpkins song? Hmmmmm. Through the power of the internet, I can find it. Ah.

“The world is a vampire, set to drain…” Is that it? I have my red pen out, time to revise that shit.

“Time is a vampire, set to drain…” That is so much more fitting, don’t you think? I mean think about it. Time flies when you are having fun, time passes swiftly as you age, time waits for no man, a stitch in time saves nine (whatever the hell that means), time is only long in retrospect, time is a monkey on every man’s back, etc, etc, etc. (Ok, ok, I made the last one up. So sue me.)

Time flies and that sucks. Get it? Vampire? Sucks? Oh forget it. It wasn’t all that funny anyway. I am just constantly amazed by just how short of time we get to spend on this planet. And being constrained to the very matters of existence so we can’t get out there and enjoy it. Sure, sure, get busy living or get busy dying.

But I never hear how someone can do that without being unbelievably wealthy or just happy as peaches to do it as a traveling destitute vagrant.

So how do you free yourself? I think this is the question that mires so many of us on a day to day basis. I think this is the driving force behind depression and those that just have to work 80 hours a week to feel normal. They are all trying to answer a question subconsciously that may or may not have a valid answer.

Others say it comes down to frame of reference and conscious decision. Making a choice to live life differently and cherishing the moments. Personally, I think only autistics can truly cherish every moment… as they don’t have a choice in the matter. So I don’t know how achievable that is. Others say that you have to value the microcosm that you exist in. Value and cherish your slice of the world as it were. And that can be true for many, but to me, that is just closing your eyes and ignoring the larger world around you.

Most people are on this earth for about 50 years give or take. 50 years to truly experience something. Something beyond being just a standard carbon unit, or a cog in the machine, or a stepping stone for someone else. 50 years is nearly long enough to see what we all should see on this earth.

We got jipped.

The big man and I are going to have some words when I see him. Because the way time is flying, I should be seeing him soon.

Soon depending on your frame of reference, of course.