9 out of 10 monkeys believe they are not behind glass

Each of us, our consciousness, our “self” builds this little world around ourselves. We wrap ourselves with a warm blanket of security, delusions, and rationalization.

And we have to.

Otherwise our minds would break. Shatter into small little pieces that evolution would jump right over.

And every so often we are brutally reminded of our precarious reality and the limits that extend not too much farther than our noses.

I guess it really depends on where you stand, but I know that reality is not the same for everyone.

It takes school shooting or a terrorist attack or a singular event to shock us all into a singular reality.

A collective moment that exists for a short period of time while our subjective realities are in sync.

It happened after 9/11, after the Columbine shootings, and this week at Virginia Tech.

Fucking sick world. But it has to be that way.

If it were a perfect world for everyone, our problems would be far worse in the long run. Struggles define us. Tragedy shapes us.

It is horrible. And the fucking loser shot himself. If that isn’t the biggest case of “I’m a pussy”, I don’t know what is. Personal responsibility just doesn’t exist for some people I guess. If it was a perfect world, the gunman’s name would never be released, never known. He would be never buried, never spoken of, never thought of again. His family wouldn’t even speak his name.

Total erasure from human existence. His reality ceases to exist. I wonder if that would prevent the “blaze of glory” syndrome in the copycat mindsets out there. Total erasure upon becoming a monster, an animal, a mindless pussy with a pocket full of bullets.

I wonder.