{"id":731,"date":"2022-07-20T14:10:38","date_gmt":"2022-07-20T21:10:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/?p=731"},"modified":"2022-07-20T14:17:13","modified_gmt":"2022-07-20T21:17:13","slug":"finding-me-in-the-neverhalls","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/archives\/731","title":{"rendered":"Finding Me in the Neverhalls"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>The halls are ancient, older than the earth, the sun, the stars<br>Red horizons at the edge of the ever expanding nothing is hardly older<br>The odd dreams of strange things walk these halls, some slither,<br>Some float, some exist and yet, at the same time don&#8217;t<br>They are all conjoined by the never was, the could have been, the maybes<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Wild, chaotic, run away probabilities coupled<br>And wound, bound, to the variances of impossibility<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Many halls are wider than entire vistas, the walls lost in foggy distances<br>A few halls have stars wheeling overhead, under a far off roof bathed in night<br>There is a rumor of a hall containing an entire galaxy, spinning, but<br>Lies can exist here too, so that is nothing strange unto itself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Water flows through the walls like life blood, writhing and alive<br>The constructs of the halls are optional, walls can be ceilings<br>Floors can be nothing, light can be missing, but dark not found<br>Glass exists in strange ways, reflecting only when it chooses<br>To not allow other horrors to pass, to watch, to observe<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Dark is prevalent, dark oozes from the corners, it slinks<br>But it is kind, not evil, not malicious, dark wonders aloud<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The halls are my home, the magic originates from here, my mother lives<br>Within its embrace, sequestered from the normal worlds, eschewed<br>My father dreams in these halls, fighting dust motes in his madness<br>Crazy can exist here too, and that is strange when you think about it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You found me here, wandering in my youth, and you, shocked by my normalcy<br>My pants were only pants, with two legs, my shirt was tucked behind a belt<br>Sure, my hair was a bit wild, and I had some dirt on my hands,<br>But I was a normal guy wandering the Neverhalls, looking for something<br>You asked what, and I replied that I would know it when I saw it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I do not say it aloud, but I feel the water seething, it knows<br>The oceans are challenged, and they do not wish to be controlled.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You were a lost thing, fell through a crack in your world, an absence<br>Death can do that, I tell you, offering you a bit of a pastrami sandwich<br>You nearly fainted, thinking you were dead, I assured you the opposite<br>After all, why would I offer a spirit a sandwich?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>You ate both halves of the sandwich, and that was good, you were famished<br>You tell me your name is Catherine, but your friends call you Kit<br>Your parents died, and you collapsed into yourself at the funeral<br>A bench in a garden, secret, under the church gable covered in vines<br>You leaned against wall that was a hall and have been here for the night<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I realize that you are the most beautiful person I have ever met<br>And the Neverhalls have amplified your uniqueness tenfold<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Can you take me home, you ask, looking over your shoulder at the vorcigaunts<br>I assure you they are quite friendly, even though they look like \u2026that<br>Birds made of corpses and old books can be offputting, but lovely otherwise<br>You smile haltingly, and I assure myself its temporary, death has visited her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I offer my hand to you, here in the hall in which you fell,<br>A good one though, this at least had running water in the twilight<br>And the vorcigaunts keep things clean to keep away the predators<br>You are smarter than you know, hiding beneath their eyries, under shadow<br>The dark likes you too, I hear it whisper, it thinks you are kind<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>With the rapid explosive flight of my heartbeat to the roof far above,<br>You take my hand fleetingly, your touch as light as a deadeye moth<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I lift you to your feet, free from the rocks in which you clung<br>And it is like the Halls is giving birth to you, welcome to the world, Kit<br>I smile gently, and you return the smile, stronger this time<br>We should probably take you to my mother, I say, she may be able to help<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Will it be far, you ask, stepping lightly over rocks, letter jacket clung tight<br>Not far, you came much further when you fell into the halls, I laugh<br>My mom chose to come here, she knows the secret paths to the worlds<br>She knows how to find the signs, the markers, the doors, avoid guardians<br>That stand steadfast against the outsides, the reals, the questions answered<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Everything beyond the Neverhalls is potential, cusped, wholly realized<br>There are many realities, and all of them are terrible in their own way<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Can I trust you, you ask, tentative perhaps, hesitant for unwanted truth<br>I think you can, but if you don&#8217;t, that is ok too, I will give you space<br>You can follow me, and if you don&#8217;t feel safe, you can come back here<br>You know this place is safe, right? The vorciguants will protect you<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The dark whispers that it will help her too, I feel it in my bones<br>Ok, you say proudly, loudly, and your voice rings against the rocks, let&#8217;s go<br>I grin stupidly at your innocent bravado, and you chuckle in turn<br>Truly, I mean it, you say, I think we should go, the birds may be nice<br>But I rather not find out the hard way, and where do the babies come from?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Born from fallen books, the ones thrown from ledges and library shelves<br>The knowledge within given birth to sentience, pulling life from death in turn<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Instead I say that someday I would explain, but for now, let&#8217;s start walking<br>I walk ahead of you, and you follow, I whistle lightly, spreading my hands<br>Out from my sides, my arms stretched widely like a scarecrow, I call the leonids<br>What are you doing, you ask, your eyes questioning every decision yet<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Calling some friends to light our way, like lightning bugs that you know<br>Here they come, I announce, and small stars pop into being around us<br>Their light is red and gentle, suffusing the air like the soft breath of promises<br>What are they, you ask breathlessly, amazed at their silent arrival<br>Leonids, red giant stars that decided they rather be small, I reply<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>How absurd, you reply, shaking your hair out, taking a few quick steps<br>You move up to my side, and put your arm in mine, surprisingly<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>They are quite lovely, you say, I notice the corner of your mouth go up<br>Its a quirk of your smile that I will treasure forever, the curve<br>It is there when you are mad, it is there when you are being sarcastic<br>It is quite lovely, I agree, talking about something else altogether<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>My mother&#8217;s house is in the Hall of the Shattered Elm, you will love it<br>As we walk under a twilight, red warm light showing us the way<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The halls are ancient, older than the earth, the sun, the starsRed horizons at the edge of the ever expanding nothing is hardly olderThe odd dreams of strange things walk these halls, some slither,Some float, &hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"webmentions_disabled_pings":false,"webmentions_disabled":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[5,3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-731","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-verse","category-writing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/731","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=731"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/731\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":733,"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/731\/revisions\/733"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=731"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=731"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/discardme.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=731"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}